When we are no longer able to
change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.-Viktor Frankl
With all the techniques that I have learned over the years, there are
still experiences that throw me off balance.
These are the times when I fall into the sleep of the illusion. I allow the pendulum of duality to swing to
the negative and permit my thoughts to start snowballing about the injustices
and stupidities of life and the world. I
lose control of my imagination and ultimately my state of being. I engage in a monologue with an imaginary
scenario playing out a drama on the stage of my mind. All the time I am forgetting that I have the
power to change the story.
Instead, I cruise along thinking I have control of the situation by playing
out this imaginary play in my mind. It’s
a horrid little drama filled with worst case scenarios, unsavoury characters
and the dominant underlying emotions are fear, anger and worry. The worst part of this is that when I catch
myself I know I am using my imagination to create more of that which I say I do
not want. Yet, somehow I remain
unconscious and fall back into old patterns of reiteration. I forget about the power of now. I lose the
gratitude of the moment and get lost in past happenings, old moments
influencing the present, clouding my judgement and projecting a future filled
with a drama I do not want.
